Revisting Discouragement

I just read a post of mine from a year ago, entitled "Discouraged." I was reminded of it when I read Penny's post from yesterday. It was when I was most discouraged about looking for a job and when I was being given one of the many b.s. excuses that those people seem to have up their sleeves.

When I was looking for a job - this job, the job that was looking for me as much as I was looking for it - I finally came across Jill at Adams. Actually, it was Lucy and then Jill. They were both really wonderful and looked at me - not just my CV.

I spoke with Jill yesterday about an unrelated matter. She asked how I was and how much I was enjoying my job. I told the truth. It's not my dream job, but the people are nice and it's great to have a job. There are, of course, people who are extra great. My manager is very good. She listens to me, even if she doesn't take action on my fabulous thoughts and ideas. And she lets me be independant. My pal, Venessa, is also great to have around. When I need to complain or gossip, she is available. It's nice to have an ally. She's one of those people who make me feel at home here, a good friend who has my back.

I'm afraid I was a little too...something with Penny the other day on her blog. But I really do feel like the world works that way. Sorry, Penny. Optimism and platitudes can be obnoxious sometimes. I should have respected that.

I like my job because, as I told a friend the other day, I can still taste unemployment. I remember it well and I prefer a job, even if it's not completely fulfilling.

Anyway, now I'm in the process of exploring other options. The "What's Next for Andy?" portion of the show has begun. Finding time in someone else's packed schedule is not my idea of any way to spend a day. The whole, "Hi. Can I get an hour with M sometime tomorrow afternoon?" is getting a little old.

At any rate, trust that irons are in the fire.